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2010-11-16T22:55:00.003+11:00

I most certainly haven't done much blogging since my last. Not as if it matters or anything.

Lets see, I've got a full time acting audition next week on Thursday 25Th. Before hand, I'll be the bitch of my acting teacher for as long as I can get him. $75 per hour I think he said. But I have to make sure that I actually remember my shit. Shakespeare I do, Steven Sewel, a bit rough. I know the words, I don't know the order the paragraphs are in and I'm constantly checking to see what's next which to me is a bad thing. I'm trying to get the last sentence of each paragraph to remind me what's next but NOOO! That's just not good enough. Yet.

I've lost what I was originally going to post up here but I'll write it again.

In my garage, there's a massive chest about 1 - 1.5m long, 0.5m tall, 0.8m wide. and pretty darn awesome. However there's a problem. Before when I did get the idea to move it to my room for a purpose I still have yet to figure out, recently, a family leather goods company apparently closed shop forever and the son of the original owners (The father I think died from cancer and I'm not sure about the mother) is just moving shit out. We ended up taking, a framing machine (More like a contraption since it uses a foot pedal instead of energy as it's driving force), a sewing machine and a whole heap of unfinished goods, three chairs, two shelves and a whole heap of scrap leather.

And since the current property our leather goods is being sold out to some other ungrateful cunt that simply can't choose the other empty lot two lots below us, all the shit that we got is moved into the garage and my room, blocking any relative path to the chest from my bedroom door that connects to the garage. (If you haven't figured it out, my bedroom is a basement. Yes I get a shit load of cockroaches down here but you'd be surprised at what else is in here. No, I'm not talking about other evil insects.)

So I'm sleeping with the aroma of leather and it's not pleasant. It makes me feel like I'm in a goddamn sweatshop. Working for my parents day in day out with no fucking rest or anything else to do.

Long story short, I want that chest in my room. I'll coat it with anti-rust spray and make it look good as new. And spend days trying to figure out what to put in it. Playwrights? Electronics and programming books? Robots and other electronics that I've acquired by taking apart printers? (I should actually throw some of that shit away. I'm not going to reverse engineer it. I'm not that advanced. Nor a beginner.)

If I was able to build a robot, I'd be as tall as my cat so it can entertain the little fuck wit instead of having her eat my hand. Luckily the bastards been living outside since it's no longer a kid. Welcome to the real world pussy.
If I was able to build another one that wasn't for animal entertainment (I'd build another for the dog. It would have a ball launcher like the tennis ball launchers) I'd build one to carry my shit, recharge my mobile and laptop and pickup chicks and shit.

Nerdy I know but bad ass nonetheless. Here's a concept art that I would be looking towards.

I've also have been trying to design up my own house and create it in 3D, apartment high rise, shopping centres but if I want to do it, I want to do it right and get absolutely everything in detail. That means every aspect of the building would have to be as of the current REAL Australian building standard papers that doesn't come cheap. Last time I checked, it costs around $200 - $1k both for either hard copy and soft copy. When I do finish it, I'll place it on Facebook as a game, get dosh off of it via ad revenue, add in guns and zombies. You know the rest. (I assume you do)

I did actually try to design a crib in Sketchup (The tool of the cheap architects) but seeing as I was left to assume the dimensions of everything, it was just a huge pile of confusing and frustrating shit. I eventually gave up and decided to design one myself. I subscribed to architecture channels on Youtube, somewhat or going to build up a wish list of books and tools and many other shit.

But seeing as I'm too busy to be practicing on monologues, the money that I would use to buy the standards paper is going to my teacher. He's awesome. Hard hitting but awesome. Mirror image of me actually.

Fuck this. This post is messy enough.

Jesus christ.

-EMR (Might start implementing this in later posts.)

Times be changing.

2010-10-06T21:52:00.002+11:00

I've started too look at some of my past blogpost (Notably the depressive ones about how shitty my life have been) and under all that vague mind shit of a post I've come to realize that I have become greater at what I am doing.

Before this, I have been pretty fucking worried at my life at this point where if I don't nail this audition for the fulltime course that's coming up, I have literally another year of nothing to do but drag my face along the concrete until the next audition which I would most likely fail because of the lack of teaching and practice of my monologues. On Saturday the 2nd of October 2010, I had to preform my contemporary and Shakspearian monologues to three people. I fucked up one hard (Which seemed abnormal because I knew this kind of like a railroad track) on the Shakespeare one, and didn't do as well as I wanted to for my contemporary monologue since I preformed it to my teacher as practice before I headed off to lunch.

Afterwards they gave us notes about us. What they pretty much said above everything that I have already been told by past teachers before, but they told me somewhere along the lines that I didn't know what my charachter was doing in the scene, I didn't embody his emotions and I wasn't prepared. First two I agree upon, last bit of that I somewhat do. Long story short, I still had a shit load to do before I would ever think of being able to get in.

After that I had some ideas as to where I could possibly find the much needed information mainly in the Shakespeare monolouge (Romeo And Juliet) and yeah. Final and only preformance is on Tuesday the 12th and instead of the normal teacher I had before hand, the course director of the Power Of Preformance (The part time courses that I am in) is taking over from last Tuesday the 5th until the final preformance.

But overall, looking back I see now what my teachers are going off about. How much I've changed since the start of my first class and what not.

I guess that's it for now. Love the whole explination of the reason why I'm so worried to what I have been doing phase change. Fin.

'Tis been a while.

2010-03-31T00:40:00.004+11:00

Indeed it has. I don't want to post much up since I'm going to bed soon. Little update for 2010.

Spending the first half of the year saving up for two courses both totaling up to $2900 but I might get a 10% discount given that I have already done two courses already, but that's if I pay in full. So from Monday to Friday, 9-3 I'm working. That's it.

Goodnight. Before this computer crashes for the fourth fucking time in a goddamn row.

Make or break.

2009-10-31T05:34:00.002+11:00

Blog writing started at: 5:34 AM
Blog writing ended at : 6:24 AM

It's 5:34 AM on a Saturday morning. I've just sat here watching TV and thinking to myself as to what happened in my life and what the hell am I going to do. This soon progressed and changed into something more like WHO affected my life negatively and who could I trust later on. I've met quite a few people this year through ACA and each and every one of them have been the greatest of friends along with people whom I simply just met and talked for a bit and left them to go off on their own and disappear.

But I'm just still 18 years old. It's too early to start complaining about how much time I've wasted.

(Right now, I just don't feel like spilling too much. Keeping things to myself.)

I just don't feel like... Shit... I haven't had that feeling of normality where absolutely every problem in my life is just solved. Nothing to worry about. In about a few weeks from now, I'm about to audition for something dead set the most important event in my life thus far. If I don't get through, I'm unable to do anything that requires fees for the entire next year in which then I would have to simply try again. But I've planned quite a few private tutoring with my teacher who knows how to improve me very significantly. So hopefully things go well.

That's so far all I want/have to say for now. It's 6:24 AM. I'm going to bed.

The fall of depression.

2009-08-02T14:13:00.001+10:00

It's been quite a long time since I did this. And given the long time, I thought I may as well update on a few things on my life.

Finished my first course of acting, onto the second. Six people turned up (Two familiar faces) to the first class and everything went absolutely unreal. In comparison to the first day of the first course, it was as if everyone knew each other so damn well there was absolutely no protection shell removal needed. (I've typed up 'absolutely' twice in that paragraph and both of them had incorrect spelling. Fuck me...)

Trying to fix the somewhat new computer. It runs but absolutely nothing appears on screen.

I'm not sure if I mentioned this before but I've been working on a huge universe story thing which is pretty much numerous stories that cross over with each other every now and then. I'm not really working on it full time but I'm working on it slowly as things appear in my head.

I want to buy Zbrush (It's a professional 3D modeling program) mainly because rigging is skull fucking hard in Blender. Don't get me wrong, Blender is awesome it's just that its pretty god awful when it comes to modelling compared to Zbrush. (I really don't think you would understand a fucking thing in this paragraph) And after that, I'll save up for Adobe After Effects, Photoshop, Endorphin and that's it so far.

I have planned my life even further (Not that far.) in terms of what I'm going to do later on in education and life in general. YOU SHOULD TOO!

(Losing content ideas here)

There are a still a lot of things to do before I move ahead in my career. (Not that I have made any movement at all...) These are all things that would prevent me getting any jobs but once their done, not sure what I'll be doing but I'd just do whats given to me. (Fucking rambling.)

Enough with all the future crap.

When I look back at the past, I never realised how much shit I really have been put through and how I just so happen to survive all that. And I figured that if I was able to barge through all that, god knows where I'm going to end up. At most times I really do feel like I want to some how restart my life and avoid those mistakes and obstacles and everything else. But I guess that's just hardened me up. Along with showing me who are my enemies in life while watching them being crushed by their sheer arrogance and hate.

And under all that crap, I some how feel like something huge is going to happen. Not sure what or how. But it's going to happen.

I've changed. Alot in fact. I've become greater in the sense that I know I can do absolutely anything I want and the fact that I have the mindset of a greatly honored man and that I am going to simply let go of whats happened in the past. I have literally planned my life from what I'm doing, when I'm doing it, how and why. I know all the traps and I know how to avoid them.

Something great is going to happen to me. And when it does, each and every little motherfucking ingrate fuckwit will see what you just passed up. The opportunity that just stood in front of you before you abused it. When you cry for help. I will be there to kick your fucking skull in and tell you to go home as that's the only place you deserve to rot.

But for those who didn't and for those supported me. Welcome. Do anything you want just as long as you don't piss me off. I'm a very friendly guy. I'm more of the provider of entertainment and I'm not that easily angered so there's nothing to worry about.

That's so far all I have to say as of now. Goodnight, Facebook, Blogspot, Australia, NSW, Blacktown.

Life's like clockwork. INCOMPLETE

2009-05-14T18:35:00.005+10:00

Monday:

Work till 3:00PM and leave for home
Shower and get ready for classes
Leave for the bus at 4:30 PM
Catch any available train to Central
Arrive at Central and walk through Devonshire St to Actors Centre Australia and wait
Class start at 7:00 PM and end at 10:00 PM
Either go to the bar or head back to the train station
Catch the train to Penrith at 10:30 PM
Arrive at Blacktown at 11:30 PM and head home in sisters car

Tuesday:

Work till 3:00PM and leave for home

Wednesday:

Work till 3:00PM and leave for home
Shower and get ready for classes
Leave for the bus at 4:30 PM
Catch any available train to Central
Arrive at Central and walk through Devonshire St to Actors Centre Australia and wait
Class start at 7:00 PM and end at 10:00 PM
Either go to the bar or head back to the train station
Catch the train to Penrith at 10:30 PM
Arrive at Blacktown at 11:30 PM and head home in sisters car

Thursday:

Work till 3:00PM and leave for home

Friday:

Work till 3:00PM and leave for home

Saturday:

Sunday:

Take the North Shore line leaving at 12:14 PM
Arrive at Town Hall at 1:01 PM
Catch the 443 bus to Pirrama Road
Walk to Pyrmont Park and wait
Parkour classes start at 1:45 PM and end at 4:00 PM
Head to the train station then back home

MISC

Pyro classes are located:

http://www.firetrybenation.com/

2nd FLOOR
QUEEN ST STUDIO
12 – 16 QUEEN ST, CHIPPENDALE
SYDNEY NSW

Krav Maga classes:

http://www.kmta.com.au/

Train Journal

2009-05-07T00:40:00.002+10:00

This was written first in my ACA Journal during the train ride back home. I know it seems pretty fucking emo and for those who know me well enough, I really don't like emos.

I literally sat there looking at my reflection in the window through the whole one hour ride. It wouldn't make much sense but I'm pretty much pointing out that I have problems that need ironing out along with the obvious fact that I am very impatient when it comes to long term things. No I'm not going to commit suicide or become a bum, I'm just sick and tired of where I am. I'm very sure that you are too.

Something is pulling me back. Wasn't quite aware of its presence before but I seriously need to fucking get over it and become better. I feel like it's literally a fucking waste of time and money.

I have changed so fucking little and I'm not doing a fucking thing about it. ((Just to note that I feel like I can't do anything about it.))

I need to fucking stop this shit if I'm ever going to get anywhere.

I need to fucking set my future straight and get the fuck out of my shit hole of a life and into the one I had hoped for.

I need to finish my objectives and it needs to be done soon.

Everything must change. Everything that I have been planning on doing must happen now. Everything I need to be doing int he future must be intricatly planned out to the final step.

I AM GOING NOWHERE FAST!

I am tipsy but I want to be drunk.

2009-04-22T01:23:00.002+10:00

Fuck me what kind of title is that shit?!

I am currently a bit tipsy. So far, I feel pretty warm inside, but I am clearly feeling cold when I'm outside where the layer of my skin is cold but I don't give a shit.

Bit unbalanced where I can't keep my balance due to the fact that I'm just too relaxed nad shit,..

Don't really give a shit about making anything too analy retentivev (THERE YA FUCKIN GO! CAPSLOCLK) gb bhbn gyu
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So as a summary, Relaxed, Loud, A bit normal speaking (what the fuck>!) and yet I want to get drunker,...asdnjfisdnkjnsdfg;knanf

WHO DID YOU FUCK WHILE I WAS AWAY?!

2009-04-17T11:34:00.003+10:00

This is a very detailed step by step kind of timeline on what I did.

Woke up before 5:45 AM. Ate breakfast, took a shower, got dressed and left for the station. Train arrived at 7:27 AM then arrived at 8:00 AM to Central. Walked all the way to the building (Which wasn't what I expected but rang the intercom... No one answers... Rang it again... No one answers...

Figured that they weren't there since it was just 8:10 AM still so I waited outside. Minutes later, an Asian woman walks in. Next a man. Next another woman that greeted me. Waited some more then rang the intercom and among the noise from the cars, there was a feint voice. I told her that I was here for the "Wachoupe casting thing" (Fucking stupid I know.) and she unlocked the door. Tried to open the door but it didn't open. I thought she said that she would come down and open it but I waited for a while until I rang the intercom again and said that I couldn't open the door. She told me to push it hard. I did so.

Walked up the stairs and walked to the right corridor to see a room with their sign on it. Walked in and there was the asian lady and the man. I over heard one of them saying "He was just standing outside so I figured he was one of the early ones" and said "Hi". They told me to just have a seat and theres a couch in the other room near the door. Did so and started reciting my monologue since I still didnt know it off by heart. And I overheard that the man who was probably on the phone that said that one person is definetly not coming, I'm here and that some female is still coming.

Still sat there and I heard the man ask "Do you have the scripts?" and he called me over. He asked me if I recived the script (Which I didn't) and said that I could just do the monologue instead. I told them that I haven't fully prepared it and he said thats ok.

First we started off by asking a few questions about myself. Told them where I live, that I have been going to acting classes in Febuary (Was it? Maybe January...) and he asked me what movies do I like. Equalibrium, Lions for lambs. Things like that. Who are my favourite actors? I said Hugh Jackman, Vin Disel, that guy from Transporter (Yeah thats literally what I said. Turns out it was Jason Statham.) Most of it was pretty vague and a bit awkward...

Now it was time for the monologue. I did it reading off of it with a few fuck ups but I steered in the general direction which was good. The beginning (Which I knew best) went great but during the middle, I was a bit shakey. But I don't know overall.

Then I did a cold read off the script since I didn't recive it. It started off as Eddie (Me) violently asking Emily (Casting director) if the baby was mine with a gun to her head. She says it is mine but I'm not the father as I was in Juvinal Hall.

If I really do get this job, christ it would be awesome but I dont think theres anyone else that would so I'm not sure.
Here is the pilot (Presentation) video

http://starchild.net.au/work/index_wauchope.html

Coincidental or planned?

2009-03-04T16:20:00.002+11:00

I'm kind of pissed off at how life is (Not in the suicidal emo sort of way). You become born, go to school, work, live and die. Its pretty repetitive and it really lacks any excitement. I can't really define what I feel about this but I just want to have something way different from what everyone else is going to experience. I've always (I might have already said this quite a few times in the past) said that I wanted to do so many things before I die but it feels like it wouldn't be enough.

I'm kind of thankful that my career path (Acting) gives you that experience of other people's life while my hobby (3D animation) gives you the power to create numerous lives to how ever you see fit.

Getting a migraine again and I have to sleep and wake up to leave for ACA at 5:25 PM.

THE MOAR YOU NOE!!! - Viruses

2009-03-03T02:11:00.004+11:00

I've had my run in with viruses before along with its suspicious links sending people in a rabbit's hole of diseases and plagues and you maybe thinking that I have some kind of fucking shit loads of titan walls and a whole army of anti-malware programs. Well your entirely wrong on quite a land slide. I have absolutely nothing protecting me other than my wits. I'll be explaining what types of viruses there are, what do they do and how to prevent them from sidewinder fucking your computer till its organs fall out.

Note that the prevention uses only yourself as your computers protection but I'll throw in something for the software side of things.

Malware

Its simply any type of software that does bad shit to your computer. And I'm talking about any software possible e.g Spore's Digital Rights Management (DRM) System is a piece of software that latches onto the systems kernel (The program that deals with the communication between hardware and software) without you knowing.

That piece of malware's purpose is simple. It sends information about you (If available) and your computer to Electronic Arts (The main company) so they can track what games you own and which ones are considered to be pirate. If they catch you using a pirated game, not sure on how they were supposed to punish you but to my mum's computer, it fucking litterally went into blackhole mode and ate itself somehow. I had to repair the shit by throwing in the legal Windows Vista CD and have it replace the program. This was due to having the same copy of Spore in two computers both playing the game at once.

You would probably say "Whats wrong with that?" (Jesus really? What the fuck is wrong with you?! I mean... Christ on a stick... Are you blind? Really, are you?) Well lets summarise every bad thing it does in point form.

It installs itself into a essential system file without you knowing. (I think it tells you somewhere in that legal agreement form but assuming no one reads it [Welcome to the family.] It's kind of your fault.)
It sends all sorts of information about you and your computer. (THAT IS NOT YOUR FAULT!)
It fucks up your computer by a automatic remote trigger. (Again it should be your fault since you pirated the game in the first place)

In order to prevent any infection, see these below. (Since its a term for the general range of them.)

Viruses

Simply any software that can duplicate itself and attach to programs in order to move to other computers.

To prevent them from infecting your computer, have a software that can automatically blog any programs or data from coming in your computer as its known for spreading from the internet, LAN networks, any from of storage devices. (CD, DVD, USB sticks etc.) From what I just skimmed from Wikipedia, viruses are well known to be the really sneaky ones from the whole bunch. I can't really say how they do it but its generally disguise, disable security and fuck up files.

Worms

Pretty much the same thing as a virus but its more of a huge flood of them without making any attempt at hiding itself. It's more power in numbers than power in fists.

Trojans

No not the condom. This is the stuff you get from people on MSN saying shit like "OMG LOOK ITS YOU NAKED!!!! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOOLOLOLOOLOOLOLOOOOOLLOLOLOLOLLOLOOLLOLOOLLOOLOLOOL !" And it would have a link somewhere next to it.

Prevention from it is dead simple. If those types of messages do come up, ask the person what that link is. If he seems oblivious to the message, its a Trojan. If not, then it should be genuine.

Guess where the name of the Trojan virus came from.

Lastly heres the question of "What can the combination of all those malware do to me?" Fucking shit loads that's how. Not only by simply fucking your computer up but being able to:

Steal your personal details
Turn your computer into kind of a 'Zombie foot soldier' (Don't remember the term) computer where all the shit done by hackers are done on your computer without you knowing. (There's a little spice to that. If the FBI traces you, you might be lucky and be the one to blame for all the destruction you caused.)
Take control of your computer (Not really the same as the above) where they will move your cursor around like their own.
Don't remember if there is anymore but fuck it.

SOFTWARE PREVENTION!!!

The best prevention softwares are the one you buy on the shelf of computer stores. (IN MY OPINION SINCE I HAVENT USED ONE IN AGES). There are others that are free but not as good as the others such as:

AVG
Spyware Doctor
Registery Cleaner (Bit essential IN MY OPINION since alot of the problems are in the registeries.)
And probably more.

Yeah their free but they're pretty crap considering they don't get paid to program all the new viruses that come out. (Which is damn quick.) Ask who ever is good at computers (My grade.) but expect alot of various opinions of which is best. But also infact expect the well known ones such as Norton or McAfee is now known to slow the fuck down your computer to a crawl.

ITS FUCKING 3:20 AM. I'M GOING TO FUCKING BED NOW!

My patience is running thin.

2009-02-22T22:24:00.002+11:00

I'm coming into the point of my life where I really want to get into my career and running as soon as humanly possible but I'm always suddenly reminding myself not to as I'm inexperienced and I could really fuck my chances up if I did so.

I'm constantly sitting on my ass in front of the computer/TV and wasting my time and doing absolutely nothing constructive. I either have no knowledge on how to do these constructive things or the money to do so and its really frustrating me to breaking point. Yeah I know its WAY too soon to start now but I don't know any more. I am trying to work on other things in the mean time but I could just do so much.

I honestly don't know how to pass the time (Not even entertainment can keep me busy but I'm a complicated person and I'm well aware of that most of the time.) Believe it or not, I am working on a movie, game and a series (Which all relate to each other in various ways) but I'm taking very small steps and I'm still in the planning stage of each of them. But these are things that would be just simply a waste of time working on through my life as they most likely wont be able to see the light of day let alone come into contact with anyone else.

But I'll keep going. In the mean time I just have to settle with working, going to classes, computer shit and everything insignificant.

My 18th birthday.

2009-02-10T15:00:00.003+11:00

I suddenly gave it a bit of thought but here it goes.

On that very day, I have a acting lesson on that night. So what I was thinking is that as a celebration, we would go sky diving seeing as I would be 18 on that day.

SO I think this is how it would go.

Skydiving early in the morning (Hopefully we could get a video of this).
Party (Videos and pictures all around)
And lastly a calming but fun acting class.

What do you think?

I don't want any $20 as a present but you would have to BYO food, drinks etc along with the payment for the sky diver if you are going. What do you think?

The Year 2009

2009-01-01T01:11:00.002+11:00

Yeah that shit again. BUT there's something different. Something free... Not sure what it is but it seemed to happen because of an absence of something significant... But enough of that. Its Thursday the 1st of January of the year of 2009 and alot of things will change for all of us.

Before, alot of great times happened and also alot of bad times occurred. Mistakes have been made and mistakes have been corrected. But as we have left that special something and moved into the real world where we have to pay our taxes, bills, food, work etc. But this is only the start of it. We have to go through UNI along with some of you people I know who have to take a little detour to get there (I DON'T HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH).
But this doesn't mean that you're mentally retarded. I would go there to learn a few things but I'm not sure if I'm bothered to anyway. I have already planned my next few years and you should too, it keeps you calm, reassured, organised and prepared about the future along with it being a good time waster.

Along with my career path, I've also planned to also work on a few other things such as starting to make some animations, stories for future feature film work etc (If I ever get that far) along with a FPS, RTS and maybe even a MMORPG if gaming technology gets that far by the time I'm done.

(Already losing shit to say)

But remember what everyone said before, during and after we left those gates. KEEP IN CONTACT!!! Add everyone on Facebook, MSN Myspace what the fuck ever tickles your gooch (Holy shit I just Googled the word 'Gooch' for the fun of it and theres a guy named Dr. Richard Gooch! HAH!!!).

So remember, keep in contact like always, work hard in UNI or TAFE or private collage etc and fucking rip it up. Have fun and good luck everyone!

Voom management.

2008-12-04T16:07:00.002+11:00

It happened with a simple phone call. I just called them up, told them my name, told them that I was looking for an interview. They said ok asked for tomorrow, I said no, they suggested next week on Tuesday, I said yes. they gave me the details and both said thank you and hung up.

Fuckin' what do I wear? Casual or formal?

But anyway, its really that easy. For those that still don't have jobs an are looking for one, go for it. You're most likely wont be shown on TV or in the movies but you will still get paid good money. Look up how much extras get paid and you get the idea but it does vary depending on what you do, how often etc.

Can't think of anything else to throw here so...

Ohh and forgot that there is this really cool website I stumbled upon.
Its here. Go there and tell me what you think.

To do list.

2008-12-03T00:25:00.002+11:00

(There is a fucking delay but not sure how long for the time Facebook takes to pick up this blogpost but it had better not be for a day...)

This would be started probably on tomorrow or the next day... Depends on how bothered I am to be attempting this.

Wake up between 12PM or 2PM.
Turn on computer.
Go upstairs and into the kitchen.
Grab a glass from the dishwasher.
Pour water into the glass from the fridge
Drink.
Leave the glass in the sink.
Tell Cali (New dog) to stop biting my foot.
Go back downstairs.
Turn on computer.
Do daily End Process in task manager.
Open Mozilla Firefox web browser.
Google Voom Talent Agency.
Click on the Australia Only bullet point.
Click on the Voom Talent Agency link.
Find out the number for an interview.
Call up Voom Management and ask for an interview.
Call up parents to notify about the interview.
Check emails on both email accounts (New and old)
Check for anything interesting from Facebook, DeviantArt, Youtube, New Found Order, Garry's Blog.
Play something.
Watch something.
Listen to music.
Play with Cali (New dog) if needed.
Attempt to make something in Blender but give up due to the lack of creativity.
Check for anything interesting from Facebook, DeviantArt, Youtube, New Found Order.
Dinner.
Shower.
Check for anything interesting from Facebook, DeviantArt, Youtube, New Found Order
Sit there wondering what to do.
Sit there wondering what to do.
Sit there wondering what to do.
Sit there wondering what to do.
Sit there wondering what to do.
Sit there wondering what to do.
Sit there wondering what to do.
Sit there wondering what to do.
Sit there wondering what to do.
Sit there wondering what to do.
???
PROFIT!!!
Sleep.

And for the next day, repeat but without the calling.

Gears Of War

2008-11-27T17:14:00.003+11:00

Picked up Gears Of War from Lance at Monday 24th of NOVEMBER.
Finished Gears Of War at Wednesday 26th of NOVEMBER.

Things that I have learnt during that time:

The Lancer isnt that great.
You would either have to wait until the enemy gets out of cover or you would have to get up and get out of cover to kill them with something like the Lancer and or Shotgun.
AT RARE TIMES, I have the accuracy and reaction time of a mentally retarded monkey.
I love the Shotgun, Longshot and Torque bow.
I saw how Hoard mode was needed for the second game. I don't want to blow someone's head off then have to complete objectives.
I remembered the days when I played Team Fortress Classic as the Sniper.
General RAAM is total bullshit.
Wretches also total bullshit (Both without and with immulsion)
Meleeing an enemy head on is total fucking bullshit
Troika emplacements are total bullshit
Driving a fucking bullshit of a vehicle and fending off Kryll is bullshit.
Grenade tagging is fun along with using the Torque bow but needs a better reaction.
Theron Guards aren't that hard.
No I'm not going to do insane...
The COG either have huge fucking lungs or they don't pant when their crouch running. (Just a small note).
The Hammer of Dawn is useless and not fun at all.
It doesn't matter which path you choose, there is still going to be shit loads of enemies waiting for you anyway.
I hate my couch.
It is so fucking hard to see shit when doing Co-op.
Don't pick a person to do Co-op when he isn't going to do shit but instead follow your every move.
Kicking body parts and torsos around is fun!
You can look retarded when leaving the left analogue stick tilted to the right or left.
Voice acting is great.
Graphics were pretty good.
Gameplay was good but needed to be more diverse other than taking cover and shooting.
I want Gears Of War 2.
My dipshit brother isnt going to get it for me.
I need another controller.

Shakespeare Help

2008-11-20T16:17:00.000+11:00

Decided that I'll post the Shakespeare monologue so people can help me and explain what the person is going on about...

8. IAGO - OTHELLO by William Shakespeare

That Cassio loves her, I do well believe it.

That she loves him, ‘tis apt and of great credit

The Moor – howbe’t that I endure him not -

Is of a constant, loving, noble nature,

And I dare think he’ll prove to Desdemona

A most dear husband. Now I do love her too,

Not out of absolute lust – though peradventure

I stand accountant for as great a sin -

But partly led to diet my revenge,

For that I do suspect the lusty Moor

Hath leapt into my seat, the thought whereof

Doth, like a poisonous mineral, gnaw my inwards;

And nothing can or shall content my soul

Till I am evened with him, wife for wife

Or failing so, yet that I put the Moor

At least into a jealousy so strong

That judgement cannot cure. Which thing to do;

If this poor trash of Venice whom I trace

For his quick hunting stand the putting on,

I’ll have our Michael Cassio on the hip,

Abuse him to the Moor in the rank garb -

For I fear Cassio with my nightcap, too -

Make the Moor thank me, love me, and reward me

For making him egregiously an ass,

And practising upon his peace and quiet,

Even to madness: ‘tis here, but yet confus’d;

Knavery’s plain face is never seen, till us’d.

Someone help me...

2008-11-13T16:47:00.002+11:00

As you readers know, I'm practising my ass off for the NIDA audition but the thing is that the Shakespeare monologue I chose is gay and I have no fucking idea what their talking about.

The link is still available below so have a look and choose one that would be good for me. Don't choose any romantic shit like that. I can't do it and it will just sound stupid.

Preparing for the future at hand.

2008-11-09T14:04:00.001+11:00

I'm at the stage where nothing can stand in my way and I need to make sure that absolutely everything goes as planned and I fix every detail and flaws of me and my life.

I have a career path from success to failure but I believe that failure isn't an option nor an existence. I came this far and I have no fucking intention to screw up now. I'm no longer going to be distracted by anything or anyone and I hope that everyone understands. I feel that I'm so close to my goal, I just need to be aware of what is happening and be well prepared for it.

I have failed in the past but now I will keep everything to the highest standard and I will not let anything think otherwise. I have drawn the line of those who are with me and those that aren't. And those that aren't would regret each fucking day they did so. It doesn't matter if it was in the past, its the fact that you still did it and you had the greatest intention to still do so since then.

National content filtering is well and truly real.

2008-11-04T17:34:00.001+11:00

I have read a few websites and having enough to confirm this before but getting the idea that this was just a rumor, I kept this at the back of my head for later reference. APC which is a good computer magazine for the advanced computer people (Nerds, geeks etc.) threw up an article via their RSS feed which I check daily and this shit comes up.

This is fucking enough to confirm and know that this may just be absolutly real and not one bit of a joke. I've seen shit loads of websites and articals concerning this and this fucking takes the cake. This is a huge concern not to only nerds and geeks etc, but literally every single person in the fucking whole of Australia.

THE ONLY WAY THAT THIS CAN COME INTO EFFECT IS THAT EVERYONE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN!!! UNDERSTAND WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN AND DO ABSOLUTLY WHAT YOU CAN TO PREVENT THIS FROM EVER HAPPENING!!!

There's more links to websites and articals of this. (I'd have more but the place I would get them from is fucking up for some reason.)

The actual prevention site.

The APC Magazine artical above if your too lazy to scroll up.

And more to come soon.

My NIDA audition.

2008-10-30T20:10:00.000+11:00

I need to memorise THREE short monologues and talk about each one of them in depth of their context. I already chosen what is to be the three but if you think I should do something else, post it as a comment.

My chosen monologues can be downloaded here.

The list of available monologues are here.

And information about the audition by NIDA are here.

BUT I also need them to be under these recommendation:

They need to show different aspects of my abilities
I have to select characters who are the same age as me
Choose scenes that you will believe will show my abilities
I need to present them with physical actions (I NEED HELP ON THAT)

Here you go.

2008-10-25T20:32:00.001+11:00

As I was reading Greg's note on Facebook (This is posted on my Blogspot then automatically sent to my Facebook via RSS feed), I decided that I would make a Blog just in the same purpose as he did along with setting out a career plan and many more.

Australians have a life expectancy of approximately 77.86 years and during that time, I want to do so many things such as making a feature film, Computer game, Design my very own mansion, get a fighter pilot's licence, Buy a fighter plane (Any of these or at least a MIG or anything that can make it to the stratosphere and back.), Build a giant mech and obviously like everyone else, Become rich or at least successful.

Some of you might already know that in the future, I want to be an actor instead of a Games developer as there was way too much shit to do as one person and the fact that you will be making games that you don't want to. I wanted to be a free man but also have a good career and make a good living. So I decided that I would be an actor and make all these things in my spare time. I already applied to the National Institute of Dramatic Arts (NIDA) and something tells me that their not looking for people with a huge amount of skill and talent so I hopefully got that covered.

If that fails, become a 3D Animator. If that fails become a Games Developer (A bit stupid as its harder to become a developer than a animator but I arranged things from happiest to crappiest) then if that still doesn’t go as planned, then I would join up in the army or air force as I literally have nothing else to go for but still try to become an actor during each backup plan.

If I reach my first goal, I'll throw a fucking huge party at my mansion and I mean literally everyone (Except a few dickheads) is invited and they can go nuts and drink etc. I couldn’t care less.

Now with the career plan set aside, on to more personal things.

In life (I'm very sure everyone has gone through this.) some of you people may heard (FUCK I HATE MY GODDAMN KEYBOARD RIGght NOW FUCK!) of this thing called love. Yes that’s right the love bug anally raped me and I vowed that if this ever happens and everything turns out as it should be, I would hold onto her for the rest of my life and never once will make her cry in any way for any reason. I'm not the type of person that isolated himself from his girlfriend and comes back saying sorry. I find it very fucking stupid and very goddamn annoying as the times I've seen this happen to people in both genders is fuckin' staggering.

I'll tell you all the details once it happens but for now, I'm only giving away a few bits and pieces of information as I don't think anyone would be fucked to read this far but I have told a few people about this and there is one person that knows (DON'T FUCKING SAY A WORD UNTIL IT HAPPENS YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!)

She is a female (Smartass fuckwits...)
She is from SAC 08
She is in ONE of my class (Obviously not telling which)
No it’s not Ashleigh Aitken (Sorry... Cockhead...)

But I never saw this coming until late year when everyone was preparing to say goodbye and leave school. At first I had thoughts that this was literally a joke but I saw and gathered the clues together and started getting the feeling that she somewhat likes me. I kept this thought through out the entire year but with the fear of it being a huge expertly planned joke (Bit stupid but yeah paranoia has me hard), I was finally convinced that something was going on with her. I still recalled the two events with her friend (Not saying who) but in both cases where it didn't go as planned, I'd always see her looking at me. Not directly but from what I think is my general direction.

During the final weeks of school, I wanted to tell her before we left. But as I always tend to have my head in the clouds (I compulsively think allot) I started to have small doses of panic or anxiety attacks that I could definitely feel each day. And normally when that happens, something would happen whether it would be good or bad. Normally bad...

This kept happening through the end of the days which I deeply regret but so far I still think there is time but now something tells me that something has happened during those few weeks. I'm not sure what but I'll still go ahead with it.

If you may know this person, send her the link to my blogspot page http://www.rednapalm.blogspot.com/ Tell her to read this post and that I need to ask her something.

More procrastination as normal.

2008-10-20T21:39:00.000+11:00

A few days ago, I found this to be pretty interesting and fucked up at the very same time.

Top 10 Mad Scientists in History GORE AND VIOLENCE AT A SMALL LEVEL (It has pictures and a video of a decapitated head of a dog that is considered still alive)

These people are real. Their cases are real and what they did is final (Except a few people).

You might be thinking that they were some sick fucks for doing so but when you think about it, they literally started a revolution in health and science. For example.

Number one on the list is Vladimir Demikhov. He got a dog, cut his head of (Surgically not brutally), and glued it on a dog of a totally different species (Surgically not crudly). This was the first step of organism transplants as he did demondstrate that the tissue can live over time but he also discovered the effects of tissue rejection. That was only step one of the most used process of surgery.

Gonna make this short for your benefit.

Number two discovered that things illnesses and diseases cannot always be contracted if you eat/drink it.

Number three was just a fucking mad man at that and he didn't discover shit.

Number four was stupid. How the fuck can it be remotly the elixer of life?!

Number five discovered galvanism which is the connection between the nervous system to the muscle.

Number six is pretty fucked up as its pretty much torchure to the dog... Did prove that oxygen was needed in blood cells and open heart surgery is possible.

Number seven at some point seemed a bit fake as it describes what happened to be a huge success to the point where everyone literally thought he was alive again but had his muscles shocked etc.

Number eight doesnt seem all that medical as he just cut up a few people, studied the effects of the decapitated body parts and used the prisoners for weapon testing.

Number nine (My favourite) is the very first cyborg to the point where he did the experiments on himself where he swapped his human arm for a robotic one and even implanting a neural array on him and HIS WIFE to create a telepathic communication between them and it was a fucking sucess! Next thing you know, I'm talking to you in fucking Mars or somewhere far away while I'm playing some game and talking to people on the phone and on MSN ALL AT THE VERY SAME TIME!!!

Number ten was able to seperate the human brain (Not literally) away from all senses around him. Aparently this caused a mind fuck of some sorts but I think those were the same tanks that Lisa and Homer Simpsons were in when they both did something that Lisa wanted to do etc etc...

This was generated out of boredom so I'll be posting up more interesting stuff later on when I'm bored...

4PlayerPodcast FUCKIN' PWNS!!!

2008-10-05T01:17:00.000+10:00

For those that have seen me go batshit during game play, 4 guys especially Brad, simply play games live on a live podcast service called Justin.tv. They pretty much play games and talk to people most of the time. They also have a Youtube channel here and their Justin.tv channel is here.

They also play horror games during the night which is the fucking funniest videos by far.

Rage.

Lastly, Sexist and genitalia.

AND SHIT LOADS MORE!!!

Software Design & Development Sheets

2008-07-16T18:33:00.000+10:00

Scanned by piggy, sent by Alex and uploaded by me.

Remember that you HAVE TO SUBMIT A WORKING .EXE WITH THE FOLIO!!!

Page 1 (The ones before that are irrelevant)
http://www.mediafire.com/imageview.php?quickkey=mzjnyzjfnyj&thumb=4

Page 2
http://www.mediafire.com/imageview.php?quickkey=xumt1zsoshx&thumb=4

Page 3
http://www.mediafire.com/imageview.php?quickkey=qtynf1t22se&thumb=4

Page 4
http://www.mediafire.com/imageview.php?quickkey=uowpgrnaxwj&thumb=4

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http://www.mediafire.com/imageview.php?quickkey=nljibdzcxon&thumb=4

Project Shrapnel

2008-02-17T04:55:00.000+11:00

First title that came in my head. Shut up...

For school, I have a Major Project also in Software Design and Development. My first idea was a Internet Cafe program where in views:

The User (Customer)

You could store your purchased hours
You would have your own display setup
Your own storage
User name and Passwords for you and you only
That's all I remember...

The Admin (People who own the place and other staff)

They were able to see what you were doing but without the user names and passwords as keystrokes and user defined blurring would be present
The ability to kick the user off the computer
The ability to ban the user off the computer
A log file of who logged in which computer, what time and day
A database of all the users including their age, address, phone number etc (Police use as they may be bludgers).
Daily back ups of user files
Restrict places in the computer's hard drive
Submit news and plans
And other shit.

All of this was supposed to be programmed in JAVA but I have no idea how to use Java and they paid on education and tutorials even though the program itself along with the use of the language is free as far as I know.

Now im making a game where it would hopefully be like Team Fortress 2, Gears Of War, Worms and thats all i could think about. It should be just a run and gun game with bazookaz (Rocket launchers), guns, grenades, sentry turrets etc.

But it would also feature things like Zombie walkies where you have to get from A to B while defending yourself from zombies. Pirate attack where all your weapons are changed into a more pirate theme and you attack ninjas from the sea, Other pirates or the commonwealth goverment thingo, Ninja attack where its the same thing as Pirate Attack but opposite, with ninja vs ninja etc. Deathmatch, team deathmatch, CTF, Ball run, Fort Defend etc.

The program I will be using is called Blender and from the Youtube Video player from the top
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I have used this before and quite equipped in its works but it uses the programming language Python which is supposed to be used in NASA but its open source (FULLY FREE). I just need to ask people on the blender artist forums for help and look for tutorials for it and I also saw a few for fps stuff and basic AI which is all I really need. And hopefully there would be a weapon template where I could just replace the file names and integers so that it could load up with the right mesh, texture and programming.

WISH ME LUCK AND HOPE ITS FINISHED FOR MULTIPLAY!

HACKER WAR!

2008-01-28T14:52:00.000+11:00

If you guys don't know it yet but a group who calls themselves Anonymous said they were going to attack the Scientology Community and whatnot BUT there's a guy named Paul "Fetch" Carnes which just so happens to be the stupid fuck that thinks he can stop a hacking group by telling them that there is still time to stop and forgive but like a dumb ass.
Supposedly his personal information such as phone number and address was leeked but haven't confirmed if it is him. Now a guy that calls himself mi5 says that their just script kiddies (People that don't know shit about hacking or programming) and they cant do shit to him.

On one corner we have...

Anonymous
and everyone that supports them but cant do shit to help them.

And on the other we have

Mr Fetch Thinks he can put this to an end with one video and has no experience of hacking what so ever (Doesn't seem he knows any events either!!!)

The Regime who supposedly to be the elite hacker who only attack evil doers!

mi5 A lone hacker who says that Anonymous sucks ass.

That's as far as I know.

Links in order of submission!

SIT BACK AND WATCH THE VIRTUAL FIREWORKS!!!

I fucking hate migraines!

2008-01-24T16:50:00.000+11:00

There is absolutely nothing more i fucking hate. Migraines are fucking annoying when they pop up and they make you feel like shit for the next three days. And I cant spell it...Out of all the things I cant spell, I had to search it in Google to find the correct spelling. Here is how it goes.

Step 1 You may see some mixed up spot of colours in one eye.

Step 2 That spot of colours starts turning white then clear making you actually fucking blind.

Step 3 That will disappear but a huge headache on the opposite side in your head (Blind in your left eye, headache in your right head).

Step 4 You will have that same headache for a while but until its gone, It just keeps getting fucking worse as you get a high temperature, fever and fun.

Step 5 At the top of that fever, You will start to vomit but nothing will come out. Once, twice, three times and fourth does the trick.

Step 6 Now your safe. You may still have a fever but your going to get really sleepy and so sleep for a few hours

Step 7 Last one for today. After you wake up you will get a headache in the exact same spot for the next 3 days and some bits of vomit in your mouth so have fun like I did!

BUT!!! There is a way to stop this! Today when I got it, I took this pill called Day Strength which is somewhat a "All in one" pill thats supposed to do all this shit and so on. I took it as soon i saw the coloured spots so all I went through was step 1 and 5 but without that vomit but instead i sat in the office shaking and sweating my ass of while i was sitting there in one position for the rest of the working day. Sleeping also helps so if you have the chance, DO IT AND DO IT NOW!

Now for other things.

There was a news thingo in Windows Live Today which you should get when you log into MSN. Its a small pop-up that shows all these links to news articles about all these stuff. I look through these all the time but there was one article that pissed me off. The title was "Website may be linked to seven suicides". [LINK]
Do not ever do this only for the cause of popularity and becoming famous. It is the dumbest thing anyone can do but just don't fucking do it for people posting comments on a fucking Bebo memorial page. Just in god's name just fucking DON'T! Suicide is never the way and you will never be known the way you thought you would want to be.
Do not inflict any damage, harm or pain to yourself like the stereotypical emo would just fucking don't.

Goddammit...

2008-01-22T01:12:00.000+11:00

Bored as fuck and I have two major portfolios to finish before the end of the holidays.

Saw I am legend with my friends from primary finally from all the fucking planning and batch SMS. I don't want to see this happening again! You either come at the right time or you just don't. And please fucking get on MSN when I'm planning something! There is a good chance that I need you for something.

After Ivan's house we should go and watch Cloverfield probably next week or so. And I saw the monster and it looks like (START SPOILER) A hydralisk from Starcraft but with weird lung sacks on the sides of its mouth (END SPOILER). Still going to see it since there should be things like survival events (If you have played any of the Half Life games, you should know what I mean) and it still looks pretty cool!

And now finally I have started to save up for a Xbox 360 and a few games. But hopefully my sister and brother should also pitch in for this as I'm not going to fucking buy another console all on my fucking own again and have people say that its not my console, its everyone's and having me say that I bought the entire thing with my own goddamm money, so shut the fuck up and don't screw around with it or ill take away the games and controllers.

My Dream Computer!!!

2007-09-25T17:31:00.000+10:00

Heres the specs from CompuDirect.

Motherboard	DFI INFINITY CFX3200-M2/G AM2/ CrossFire Xpress 3200/ DDR2/ A&GbE/ ATX Motherboard
CPU	AMD Athlon 64 X2 Dual-Core Processor 6000+* (3GHz) AM2, Retail
Case	X-ALIEN 420 Watt Aluminum Black Side-Window Panel ATX
Memory...(2)	1GB PC6400 DDR2 800
Hard Drive	Western Digital WD4000YS 400GB SATA2 7200rpm 16MB
DVD-RW	LG Electronics GSA-H55NK 20X Super Multi SecurDisc DVD+/-RW Internal Drive (Black), Bulk w/ Software
Video Card...(2)	Sapphire ATI Radeon X1950Pro 256MB 2DVI/TV-out PCI-Express Video Card, OEM
Sound Card	Creative Labs Sound Blaster Audigy SE 7.1 24-bit Sound Card (Low Profile), Bulk
Keyboard	LOGITECH G15 Gaming Keyboard
Mice	Logitech RX1000 USB Laser Mouse
Warranty	1Years Labor,1Year Parts,Lifetime Tech Support (TS)

All totaling in $4160.20

Fuck sakes...

CORRECTION: $4 825.10

Ub3r |337 64m1n6 0r6y

2007-09-23T11:32:00.000+10:00

Thats uber leet gaming orgy.

For those that didnt come last saturday. Suck fucking shitfor we pwned the shit out of each other in Gears of war, Halo2, WWE something something for the whole aproximatly ten hours!!!

I will absolutely be doing that again but with now a pool as summer's coming up and it should be clean by then. Not sure when but it is going to happen.

For those that are wondering why they weren't invited, first of all.

Greg you fucking dumbass.

For my St Patricks friends (there would have been way too much people to hold in one place but Ill try next time hopefully)

You don't need to take my word that my house is cool since i don't know how cool it is as i have been living in it my whole life and i cant really compare between some one else's but ask Mata man (heheheh), Stairs and everyone else that has been to my house.

Meh...

2007-08-02T10:10:00.000+10:00

I'm at home doing shit for school.

I have about around three assignments (Few still coming up) and three assessments.

And they are...

English Oral assessment
Maths Trigonometry assessment TOMORROW
Design and Technology Case study
Software Design and Development Pizza Program
Information Processing Technology STILL COMING UP
Work Studies Job interview assessment STILL COMING UP

And i also finished F.E.A.R in three days and now starting F.E.A.R Extraction but may take longer than normal.

Trying to get everything ready

2007-05-26T14:03:00.000+10:00

I'm trying to get everything prepared and ahead with:

School - I'm in front of homework and assignments so not much panic except for tests and exams etc

3D Work - I might be getting Bryce 6 and ZBrush

Computer Hardware - I need a job

And lastly...

This, Im trying to see if i can make another website and use that one as a title page type of thing and im also trying to modify and arrange as much stuff as possible so give me time.

And please in the name of god tell me who the fuck comes here, I have had enough of making shit for no one let alone for a reason.

Ventrilo

2007-05-10T00:38:00.000+10:00

Thanks to Jericho I now dont have to type all this shit into MSN unless they dont either have the program or mic!

If you want to join the server ask for my IP Address and you must also state the email that you have (TO FIND OUT IF YOU ARE ON MY CONTACT LIST)

Just a question

2007-05-07T02:37:00.000+10:00

If I had a program which could be really cool (If your interested in that kind of stuff), would it be better to give you the installation program and lots of tutorials that wouldn't really give you a smooth path of the program or should I just give you URL's of the websites which i might just have got them from.

From what i can see is if you chose the with tutorials option im talking about more than a gigabyte but without it its just a few megabyte.

Just tell me your answer in msn (If you have it) but if no one does say anything then i will make the choice.

Games!

2007-05-01T17:50:00.000+10:00

A few months ago, I was downloading all these games and trying to compile it all into one or some CD's and sell them to people for $10 (Its worth it, Trust me).

I'm almost done so please wait if your interested.

If you don't go to my school or you live in another country theres nothing i can do, but if you just don't go to my school we will try to figure something out.

Theres a preview of one game that will be on there.

Awesome...

2007-04-24T00:10:00.000+10:00

Just awesome.

Today I got my order of this headphones which have an inbuilt sub woofer which sounds pretty fucking cool!

As you can see, I put up some more videos but the thing is that the Linkin Park and The Hilltop Hoods music videos wouldn't normally give you the embedded code to put it in blogs such as this one because its the same thing as piracy since you can listen to the song over and over for free.

Speaking of Linkin Park, Who was the one that said that they were dead and was told that one of your friends saw it on their website??? EH? WHO WAS IT???

And i'm coming back to Counter Strike: Source

Finished my D&T assignment... and umm... i guess thats it

URGENT!!!

2007-04-10T15:36:00.000+10:00

If you know whats happening and why I'm asking you for your last name and age, For my birthday party I was planning a Paint ball Party.

But the very thing is that I would have to pay $50 for each person that came or is expected to come and anyone that was 16 on the day could not come but this was only a few people.

If these expectations wasn't met then i would have to pull the whole plan down and with no idea what to do for my birthday, I would have to stop the whole thing and do it next year.

But I just cant goddamn wait for another year.

If you really want to go you must tell me immediately in any way.

If you do pay for yourself you don't have to bring me a present. But then for those that don't... Well i couldn't just say that they can bring me $20 since thats just stupid.

Please, I don't care about the money! I JUST WANT TO PLAY!!!

Insert Title Here....

2007-04-04T16:06:00.000+10:00

At the 22/4/07 is going to be my birthday and for the party I'm going to see if i can hold it at a paint ball camp for everyone to shoot each other etc. I haven't finished planning everything but I'll try to do get it done before it happens

In other pointless news!

If anyone has seen that video of a guy (10 - 15 yrs old) and with his little brother sitting next to him in front of the computer chatting online (Yes the kind your thinking of) and where his little brother says to type in something like taking a shit into your (The guy at the other computer) butt hole (Thats the way that they said it) and back into theirs forever.

That scene is from the movie Me and you and everyone else we know, It was on showtime last night (3/4/07) and its like Napoleon Dynamite but the older brother gets head by 2 chicks, a little girl has a fantasy of being a house wife and other shit...

You can watch the movie or just search it up on Youtube or Yahoo Videos etc. Very funny and worth the watch.

P.S Fuck you for those people that thought the dogs were something negative (Don't know what but fuck you anyway) You just don't know humor when you see it.

Skipping school on Monday!

2007-03-31T10:33:00.000+10:00

Yes I have to skip school on Monday since i have to go to two doctors appointments on that day so suck shit for those that have to go.

Edit: Sorry for the late update but its on Thursday and seeing as i have that English assessment on that very same day I have to cancel one of the appointments and find another time.

My dream of death!

2007-03-25T21:11:00.000+10:00

If anyone remembers the news about that Australian soldier Kovok (don't remember how to spell it) but it was the one where he was joking around and ended up putting a gun in his mouth and pulling the trigger.

But before that happened he also wrote a diary entry about how he dreamed that he killed himself in the same way that really happened (or so they say that the entry was real).

A few days ago i dreamed that i had this thing in my wrist like as if i was giving blood but instead i was getting blood. I lift up my hand and notice the blood starts to move back the way it came from the tube and as i try to get back the blood by lowering my hand all the sudden too much blood pours into my wrist and i scream out "Oh god no!" then i felt my stomach and veins expand (as in i really felt this happen) and then a feeling like my heart just exploded and i fall to my left and die but while i felt like i was dead it felt like there was blood pouring down my mouth so i try to stop it but the very same feeling when the blood suddenly rushed in then i woke up.

I don't really believe in this thing but i have a doctors appointment on Tuesday at Westmead hospital and back when i went to my family doctor he gave me a sheet that has the information about the thing i have (Don't remember what its called) but it said that i might have to have an operation if its that bad.

Wish me luck and hope i dont die!

My migration to Blog Spot!

2007-03-21T20:37:00.000+11:00

I have now made my move from MSN Spaces to here.

But seeing as I had loads of stuff there I had second thoughts about this.

Should I move everything from there to here? (God no)

Should I just forget about all of this? (Not so sure)

Or should I just stop doing blogs there and do some here for now on? (I couldn't think of any other questions)

And so it is

The URL to the website is...

http://jax2milz.spaces.live.com/